JoyAfterDarkness

I'm a 32 year old messy nerdy CD Twink with a desire to someday do a soft transition to further align my body with my mind. I have a penchant for subbing, somewhat curious about more extreme kinks, mild masochistic tendencies, and I love to play with my butt, wanting to train it.
Though I possess no collection of toys and must often get around that in creative, sometimes risky ways, but knock on wood I haven't had any severe accidents in 15 years.

It's a struggle to play solo and work my hole to the degree I'd like it to be at even though it's somewhat well worn, I would like to go further... I've always wanted to try fisting, but ever only got it to work once on my own in my teens with a lot of lube, and then I chickened out, but have been chasing that high ever since then in other ways.

Someday before I get too old, I'd like to be someone's little chastity caged sock puppet 💜🍑
I'm a bit unhinged...

I frequently dream about being tied up, spanked, strapped into fucking machines, having increasingly larger toys used on me, etc etc, but it's a difficult dream and fantasy to live out where I'm at 😚

I'm chat and discussion friendly, even though I'm basically a complete freak in every other regard...

Oh also I don't expect or present perfection, all I care about is unbridled honesty.
Nothing wrong with a little glamour, but it's not expected, I look like crap most days lol